jUicY mE

Sun, 02 Dec 2007 01:53:59 GMT

omg...i just remembered that i even had a live journal account...its something i havent used in a long long time!!
the last entry i made on this thing was in march....things were just beginning with me and C back then....well things had already started but like things were getting i dunno boring?! and now 9 months...enough time to have had a child!!! and we're still together! its kinda crazy!....
except for some reason i havent beeen feeling bored or annoyed or even remotely like i want to break up wit him for a long long time! somethings going on! maybe this time ive fallen in love?! haha...so doesnt sound right coming from me!!

anyways 2nd year at uni....its all going good...made some really cool friends this year!! they rock my world! one of them is having a 21st soon and me and this other guy planned it all! funi how things like this work out!

Boredom...

Wed, 07 Mar 2007 02:11:37 GMT

How come everytime theres something good in my life there always comes a time where i sense boredom.....
im in a relationship...i like the guy...but im starting to sense boredom between us...maybe even with all the tecnology we now a day possess msn and text messages still do not suffice in keeping a relationship alive...
or maybe its just a problem with me...
everytime i sense someone getting that much closer to me....to everything i have hidden i get scared and wanna pull the plug...
this time i'm gonna stick at it and make it work...if he doesnt pull the plug then neither will i...this is gonna work...

insomnia

Thu, 08 Feb 2007 03:53:30 GMT

nearing 4am still cant sleep...omg...

Happy

Sat, 03 Feb 2007 01:13:58 GMT

For once in my life i'm in a truly content place. I'm in a course which i love, i live in a really cool place which so many students are clearly envious of, i have loads of friends who i know actually care about me, i'm going to hong kong this summer (o yeah!) with money to spend!!(score) and i have a guy in my life who i know actually likes me for who i am...none of the bull shit...
hes not the 'i just want sex' guy, hes not the 'i just want a hot chick hanging off my arm' guy, hes not the 'im bored with my life and want some action' guy either....hes just a guy who cares about me...takes an actual interest in my life and likes me for who i am! wow...guys like that are a rareity.....they really are...genuine nice guys have been extinct many many years ago along with the dinosaurs and dodos...dead and non existant....how did i get so lucky all of a sudden....
its like i'm just waiting for the penny to drop...searching for the missing thing...searching for the one bad thing thats gonna happen....what is it...*scratches head*
maybe for once and once only my life is in order...there is no chaos...everything is fine and everything is well...maybe for once there is no drama and no need for a sympathetic shoulder to cry on.... maybe for once the penny doesnt need dropped because this time everything is gonna be fine....just fine!

Life

Sun, 19 Nov 2006 19:15:10 GMT

Life is like a roller coaster....theres ups and downs, theres highs and lows....and sometimes when you feel on top of the world woosh your back at the bottom again just like that...sometimes you pick yourself back up again and slowly you climb back to the top and reach your high again...sometimes it takes time to get there and you experience little bumps here and there and go coasting along for a while, but when you do reach the top that high you feel is incredible......

i constantly feel like i'm riding on a rollercoaster....i cant figure out if its a good thing or a bad one...?

Biggest rant yet!!

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 23:13:07 GMT

Omg!
i'm not even being funny....i'm pissed off to the max and seriously i dont think i've been this pissed off for a long long time
i txted the bitch and asked politely for my NEW NEVER WORN jacket back and she tells me nope!
she really does have the nerve that girl! after living off us for 3 fucking years! causing so much distress and trouble you can not imagine how does she repay us?
the list is endless!!!

1. she steals my clothes...everything thats limited edition, expensive or new is now currently floating about somewhere!
2. she refuses to give my clothes back to me!
3. she treats the house like a hotel as i've mentioned before!
4. she gives our family a bad name
5. she tells her boss everything that goes on in this house! its like living in big brother!
6. she runs up huge phone bills and doesnt pay for them!
7. she messes everything up and doesnt clean up!
8. she breaks the washing machine and iron everytime!
9. she runs up a huge electricity bill
10. i'll stop at this one or i mite be here all night! she spreads rumours and tells everyone what a bad auntie and uncle my mum and dad are and she tells people its living hell living in my house!
well then if she fucking doesnt like it that much then she can very well leave! toodloo loo! bye bitch!
she really really needs a good beating and a good psychiatrist that girl!
someone has got to sort her out please before i have a break down!
i've lost weight (i'm not complaining) recently from all the worry of what i'm gonna find missing from my bedroom when i go home! i now fit into a smaller size than i was....its not healthy!
shes a fucking health hazzard too!!

SLUTTTTTTTT!!!!1

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 00:52:40 GMT

OMG......THIS ENTRY WILL CONTAIN SOME RATHER EXPLICIT AND COLOURFUL LANGUAGE SHALL WE SAY...
IF ANYONE READ LAST NIGHTS ENTRY THEY'LL KNOW I HAVENT BEEN FEELING THE BEST BUT REALLY TONIGHT IVE JUST HAD ENOUGH! ITS EITHER ME OR HER! AND WE ALL KNOW WHO I'M TALKING ABOUT WHEN I SAY HER!!
I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF HER AND HER ANTICS AND CLOTHES STEALING! WHY CANT SHE JUST GO AND BUY HER OWN? SHE COMES IN HERE TO MY ROOM AND TAKES EVERYTHING THATS EITHER A) NEW OR B) EXPENSIVE! THAT GIRL HAS SOME SERIOUS ISSUES AND SHOULD GO AND SEE A 'MIND DOCTOR' TO SORT HER HEAD OUT!
GOD I DONT THINK I'VE HATED ANYONE MORE RITE NOW! HOW CAN YOU HATE YOUR OWN COUSIN THAT MUCH? IT SENDS SHIVERS DOWN MY SPINE JUST TO EVEN THINK OF ALL THE STUFF SHES PUT US THROUGH THESE PAST COUPLE OF YEARS AND WHEN I LOOK AT HER THERE ISNT AN OUNCE OF LOVE OR COUSINLY FEELING IN MY BODY JUST HATRED PURE HATRED.....SOMETIMES I THINK AM I THE ONE WHO SHOULD BE GOING TO SEE A SHRINK BUT THEN IT COULDNT BE ME CAS I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO FEELS THIS SORT OF RESENTMENT TOWARDS HER! EVEN HER BEST FRIEND FEELS IT! NOT SURPRISING HER BEST FRIEND RIPPED UP ALL HER PHOTOS AND BURNED THEM! ROT IN HELL SMELLY BIATCH!
ALL I WANT IS MY CLOTHES BACK. OCCASSIONALLY I'VE TAKEN SOMETHING OF HERS JUST TO SHOW HER WHAT IT FEELS LIKE BUT THEN SHE COMES INTO MY ROOM AND TAKES JUST ABOUT ANYTHING SHE CAN LAY HER HANDS ON I'VE NEVER TAKEN ANYTHING EXPENSIVE AND I'VE NEVER TAKEN ANYTHING 'NICE' ITS ALL BEEN LITTLE TOPS FROM H AND M AND CRAP LIKE THAT, THIS TIME SHES GONE TOO FAR, NEW JACKET WITH A LABEL NEVER WORN!
DOES SHE THINK SHE LOOKS BETTER THAN ME IN THAT JACKET? CAS I CAN CERTAINLY TELL YOU NOW SHE DONT!!

I HATE YOU STUPID COW AND I WANT YOU OUT OF MY LIFE FOREVER!THIS IS MY FIRST RANT ABOUT HER IN QUITE A WHILE NOW BUT THIS TIME ITS GONE TOO FAR AND SHES JUST PUSHED ME OVER THE EDGE! I DONT WANT TO KNOW OF HER EXISTANCE......PEOPLE BEWARE SPEAK OF HER AND BE PREPARED TO GET BITTEN ON THE HEAD UNLESS I VOLUNTARILY SPEAK ABOUT HER!

insomnia

Mon, 19 Jun 2006 02:19:11 GMT

3 am and i'm still not asleep...something is definately not right....i cant sleep its driving me insane....its not just tonight and a couple of nights here and there...its every night!!! i'll try to sleep and the more i try to sleep the more i cant sleep...thats 3 problems to see the doctor about tomorrow. my life sux right now cas of this sleeping problem and minor hayfever problem...i wanna pull my eyes out....o an cut off my nose......and i just wanna be able to sleep....like actually just get into bed and close my eyes and be away to dream land.....
eveytime i try i get frustrated with myself and wanna kill myself....maybe thats the problem there.....maybe i should go see a shrink...hypnosis crap...that would be fun...or maybe i could just get some pills? *sigh*

i spoke to M last nite....i'll be seeing him on thursday ^_^ he thought i was avoiding/ ignoring him bless his lil heart....thats at least one less thing to worry about...the whole friendship vs relationship problem, kinda seems clear now!

i really need to sleep....i've been trying for like 3 hours and stil cant sleep....any suggestions on how to get to sleep anyone?i've even darkened my room in order to make it totally dark, i've tried tiring myself out before bed time, i've tried to concentrate on staying awake...result of that is i end up more awake!

*sigh*

Sat, 03 Jun 2006 03:51:45 GMT

Mon, 22 May 2006 22:24:00 GMT

well politics one word laughable...mmm...my hair smells nice, anyways thats besides the point cas politics was fucking shite today!! i mite aswell just tell my family i'm not going to uni rite now! theres no way i've got anything but a C this year for politics and theres no way i'm going to pass history with a b or business studies for that matter....im gonna live in a cardboard box
clairepie hunny would you like to design my box?

Sun, 21 May 2006 23:44:11 GMT

GOOD LUCK FELLOW POLITICS STUDENTS!
HAHA NOT THAT I'VE DONE ENOUGH REVISION FOR IT.....IM IN BED THINKING I SHOULD BE DOING MORE FOR THIS EXAM YET I CHOOSE TO USE MY TIME TO UPDATE MY LIVEJOURNAL AND USE THE TIME I HAD TO REVISE TODAY TO WATCH SOME KOREAN SERIES ON DVD! HOW STUPID AM I ? HOWEVER THE KOREAN SERIES WAS THE CUTEST THING I'VE EVER SEEN ITS A LOVE STORY AND MAKES YOU FEEL SO GUSHY AND WARM INSIDE ^^ ITS AMAZING!!
I WISH PEOPLE LIKE THAT EXISTED, I WISH LIFE WAS LIKE THAT!
HATE THE WAY REAL GUYS ARE SO SMELLY AND GAY!!!
REAL BOYS = SMELLY,GAY, RETARDED,CONFUSING,AND TOTALLY NOT CHARMING!
SO Y DO WE LOVE THEM???? WEIRDOS!!....
HM....I FEEL I DONT HAVE ENOUGH EXAMPLES FOR POLITICS TOMO...DEAR O ME THINK I MITE GO SURF THE NET FOR SOME RITE NOW!

revision.....

Mon, 15 May 2006 13:46:53 GMT

finally finished first module of history revision!! it feels bliss now onto tackle comparison module of politics! @_@ disappointing or what? reward yourself with more revision! hm....
i'm way over my time on a break but stupid someone is standing in the kitchen talking really loudly on the phone and i cant concentrate....god i wanna shoot her! now shes shut the door to the kitchen and i need to revise!!! i mite have to take a minor "BF" if anyones ever seen white chicks they'll know what i'm talking about! its amazing movie!!
why does she have to use my house phone anyways???
**sigh** my life is so complicated!!!
anyways good luck to everyone doing exams and happy revision!!! xxx

wow amazing!!

Mon, 15 May 2006 13:40:31 GMT

hot_ice_queen is poisonous! Induce vomitting if ingested.

N
POISON

From Go-Quiz.com

wow! this is cool!!!

Mon, 15 May 2006 13:39:51 GMT

Look out for the

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HOLE

From Go-Quiz.com

Sat, 06 May 2006 23:00:54 GMT

i got paid today!! full on happy bunny!
went down to jamaica inn after work for about 15 min then left and now im sitting here on the internet! me life is so interestin!
just said hi to someone and they didnt answer how rude!
hm.....indiana land tomorrow i'm so excited!
if your fat how can you be a porn star? apparently there is a tv series on called larger than life!
kinda makes me wanna puke!
no offence!
i just burnt bread oopsie!
1 full day left of school left! full on excited
muck up day tuesday....i'm gonna be a princess
i'm going shopping with my fat paypacket! new clothes for leavers dinner
saw some nice clothes in magazines today....need to shop!
some people are so rude!

Mon, 01 May 2006 20:30:22 GMT

hey hey i was given the letter T by homo
join in the letter game! give me a comment on this post and i'll give you a letter and you have to write 10 words beginning with that letter and an explanation of what that word means to you!

T is for......

TUXEDO
a lot of guys look well hot in a tux, guys even if your ugly put on a tux and most girls will swoon at your feet...tho the tux has to be a nice one and it has to suit you!
TEDDY BEAR
i grew up with one and i'm sure many others did too! i still sleep with about 10 teddys my favs are my ralph lauren bear and my hello kitty there so cuddly!! better than cuddling with a man!
TONER
biotherm skin toner...couldnt live without it! does wonders for my skin! best skin care product ever!
TODAY
the start of my present and future
TOMMY HILFIGER
a racist so and so.... in an interview he was once asked 'Mr Hilfiger if your clothes sell the best in the asian market why dont you tailor them so they are more suited for asian bodies?' i quote 'my clothes are made for whites only' after i read that i havent purchased another tommy hilfiger item since!
TREADMILL
so many a times have people tried to lose weight on this thing....i believe it really does work but it takes a hell of a lot of time! but still keeps you fit and healthy
TEXAS
where President George W Bush is from...i dislike him and i dislike the texas accent
TORNADO
first movie i went to see with my mum in hongkong! that night was amazing just me mum and a couple of her friends without my lil brothers in the way had an imense night and quality daughter mother bonding time
TALKING
something i love to do and never shut up! i talk about anything and everything
TOUCH
at this moment in time i'm craving for someones touch....but sadly that person is not yet over his ex....dammit what does it take to get over her?

back to school on monday!!! ALREADY?

Sat, 22 Apr 2006 10:58:58 GMT

:'( cry cry its back to school on monday and i really dont wanna go back!! i've had too much fun doing nothing and not really being stressed on this easter holiday! sux! but on the other hand theres only 2 weeks left of school left!
went to work last nite and some hot guy came in just before i was leaving phwoar he is so hot except he always comes in with his girlfriend! :'( but he did give me a really hot smile before he left mmmmm....so hot! recently i rediscovered my faceparty account and seeing i havent updated for such a long time i decided to update it, anyways so ive been getting these messages from all these random people on it some person wrote to me saying 'ever considered appearing on adiscreet amateur adult movie.... we're currently looking for women with your obvious talent....interested?'made me laugh so much me and my brother are currently bonding...sounds weird i know but we're watching this chinese drama together so we can spend time together hehe its good tho cas i dont think i've ever done anything like that with him before! love my lil bro will miss him dearly in a couple of months time!

Tue, 18 Apr 2006 22:55:30 GMT

easters nearly finished and i can say its been fun yeah! made a huge mistake on saturday nite! went into the wok with mark and cas i'd been drinking i wasnt too steady on my feet so i was leaning on mark kinda, some would say i was touching him up. but any how i was told later that Mrs Chan owner of the wok is the biggest gossiper in town o dear so no guesses who the hot of the press topic of convo for the next while will be! ME!
its gonna be OMG i saw jade with a caucasian boy on sat nite and they were all over each other, rumours could get worst than that as shes a known exagerater so you know it could probably escalade to OMG she was kissing him in front of a shop full of ppl! i mean my uncle and auntie who are happily married have been rumoured to be divorced and apparently the women that works for him is pregnant with his baby!
*sigh* sometimes i think my downfall in life is going to be gossip and rumours in the 9 years i've lived here the rumours just get worst! apparently i was seen canoodling with some guy on the streets of bangor! but if anyone knew me they'd know canoodling happens near enough in private and not on the streets of bangor where beady eyes can see!
well fuck you all stupid Northern ireland chinese community! i'm leaving you soon!!! i cant wait! i'm gonna be better than all you!

Sat, 15 Apr 2006 11:41:27 GMT

hm........

Tue, 11 Apr 2006 19:17:33 GMT

haha friday nite eventful!

Fri, 31 Mar 2006 23:50:46 GMT

OMG IS THERE SOMETHING WRONG WITH PPL AND MENUS? LIKE SERIOUSLY IF YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOU WANT DONt FUCKING STAND IN FRONT OF ME GOING ERM.....LET SOMEONE ELSE BE SERVED DONT FUCKING HOLD UP THE Q!! I KNOW THE WHOLE FUCKING MENU THAN ANY OF YOU EVER WILL DONT TELL ME WHAT FUCKING HONEY CHILI CHICKEN IS!! I KNOW WHAT IT FUCKING IS!
DONT COME UP TO ME AND SPEAK REALLY SLOWLY AND LOUDLY CAS IF I DIDNT UNDERSTAND ENGLISH SPEAKING SLOWLY AND LOUDLY WONT ALLOW ME TO SUDDENLY UNDERSTAND ENGLISH!
MY ENGLISH IS PROBABLY BETTER THAN YOU SO DONT FUCKING TREAT ME LIKE I'M SOME DUMB BLOND!

Sun, 26 Mar 2006 13:45:16 GMT

well didn get to bed last night till really late was txting a certain someone til 5am this morning i'm so zonked today and have to go to work o well at least i get paid for it i guess thats not a bad thing! except the fact its totally boring of course but then again i guess i get to read 'where rainbows end' i like the story and i like the idea of the story but i'm not sure i like the actual story its really starting to annoy me the way its told through emails and instant messaging! i think i know y everyone didnt like it! clocks went forward and now i'm kinda messed up does that mean i slept til 12 or 1 today?? wathched the oc just there it is so good and seth is so hot!
didnt finish work til 1 last night then went to piccolos except i didnt get anything cas i got there and decided i didnt want anything plus some random fat bald man walked up to me and stood right behind me i was freaked! so i walked out!
anyways have to get ready for work....it takes me hours to make myself look decent now a days! *sigh*

Fri, 24 Mar 2006 14:48:52 GMT

WELL SPENT A BALTIC NIGHT OUT IN CRAWFORDSBURN UNDER A BASHER....GOT UP THIS MORNING AND I SERIOUSLY COULDNT FEEL ANYTHING IN MY BODY BUT THEN GOT UP TO DO ACTIVITIES AND STUFF AND I WAS WARMER AGAIN...EVEN SO I COULD HARDLY SAY I GOT A GOOD NIGHTS SLEEP! THE 4TH AND 5TH YR I THINK IT WAS WOULDNT SHUT UP AND WE HAD TO GET OUTTA BED TO SHOUT AT THEM AND MR BLOB WAS VISITING! EWW!!
BUT ALL IN ALL I THINK WE PROBS HAD A BETTER TIME THAN THE ARMY DID IN EVEN MORE BALTIC NEWCASTLE OR WHEREEVER THEY WENT!
NAVY TEAM WORKS! WE RULE!

Mariah carey- dont forget about us

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 15:27:26 GMT

(Don't forget about us)
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
No baby, no baby, no baby no
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
My baby, boy...

[Verse 1]
Just let it die
With no goodbyes
Details don't matter
We both paid the price
Tears in my eyes
You know sometimes
It'd be like that baby (yeah)

[Bridge 1]
Now everytime I see you
I pretend I'm fine
When I wanna reach out to you
But I turn and I walk and I let it ride
Baby I must confess
We were bigger than anything
Remember us at our best
And don't forget about

[Chorus]
Late nights, playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about us

I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

[Verse 2]
Oh they say
That you're in a new relationship
But we both know
Nothing comes close to
What we had, it perseveres
That we both can't forget it
How big we used to did it

[Bridge 2]
There's only one me and you
And how we used to shine
No matter who you go through
We are one, that's a fact
That you can't deny
So baby we just can't let
The fire pass us by
Forever we'd both regret it
So don't forget about

[Chorus:]
Late nights, playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about us

I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

[Rap]
And if she's got your head all messed up now
That's the trickery
She'll wanna have like you know how this lovin' used to be
I bet she can't do it like me
She'll never be MC

Baby don't you, don't you forget about us

[Chorus:]
Late nights, playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about us

I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

Late nights, playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about us

I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
No baby, no baby, no baby no
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go

When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us.

currently my fav song!

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 15:23:26 GMT

sittin here in my brothers room using his laptop....you know hes younger than me and he gets a laptop in his room and i dont? thats crazy!!
anyways i skived out of 2 periods of school today woohoo that was fun....not that i dont do it every wednesday!
ccf overnight tomo gonna freeze my ass off but i'm sleeping in the car i dont care what everyone says haha!!! have to pack stuff tomo to go!! BORING! ooh...i've stopped using caps lock hehee....speaking to M hes so cute hes coming home on the 24th for his birthday i'm excited! even tho i'm probs not gonna make it up to belfast cas no one to go with and have to work anyways.... :'( anyone fancy a trip? drop me a line! teehee!!
hm....i checked my myspace today and it seems like i keep getting these randomers adding me and sending me messages! its kinda weird! o well i guess one cant help it if ones hot! haha!
JOKE!
schools kinda been weird for the past couple of days!! ive been stressing out about this year book for too long and now its over i'm all relieved and i actually feel happy! *SIGH* i've even stopped eating everything because i've been stressed!! it can only get better dont wanna be putting on weight when i have to be fitting into a bikini in the summer now do i? haha!
speaking of the summer my new bikini came today! it was so exciting! its yellow...teehee a pink and a yellow one there both exactly the same but i like them both ppl think i'm insane teehee!!
i also got a new miss sixty skirt but its rather huge on me so i mite have to return it! lol i need a smaller size but there all sold out its rather sad i feel like crying over a skirt! it was a lush skirt!!