[Sunday December 2nd, 2007 1:53am] omg...i just remembered that i even had a live journal account...its something i havent used in a long long time!! the last entry i made on this thing was in march....things were just beginning with me and C back then....well things had already started but like things were getting i dunno boring?! and now 9 months...enough time to have had a child!!! and we're still together! its kinda crazy!.... except for some reason i havent beeen feeling bored or annoyed or even remotely like i want to break up wit him for a long long time! somethings going on! maybe this time ive fallen in love?! haha...so doesnt sound right coming from me!! anyways 2nd year at uni....its all going good...made some really cool friends this year!! they rock my world! one of them is having a 21st soon and me and this other guy planned it all! funi how things like this work out! READ (0) CMNT

Boredom... [Wednesday March 7th, 2007 2:07am] How come everytime theres something good in my life there always comes a time where i sense boredom..... im in a relationship...i like the guy...but im starting to sense boredom between us...maybe even with all the tecnology we now a day possess msn and text messages still do not suffice in keeping a relationship alive... or maybe its just a problem with me... everytime i sense someone getting that much closer to me....to everything i have hidden i get scared and wanna pull the plug... this time i'm gonna stick at it and make it work...if he doesnt pull the plug then neither will i...this is gonna work... READ (0) CMNT

insomnia [Thursday February 8th, 2007 3:53am] nearing 4am still cant sleep...omg... READ (0) CMNT

Happy [Saturday February 3rd, 2007 1:13am] For once in my life i'm in a truly content place. I'm in a course which i love, i live in a really cool place which so many students are clearly envious of, i have loads of friends who i know actually care about me, i'm going to hong kong this summer (o yeah!) with money to spend!!(score) and i have a guy in my life who i know actually likes me for who i am...none of the bull shit... hes not the 'i just want sex' guy, hes not the 'i just want a hot chick hanging off my arm' guy, hes not the 'im bored with my life and want some action' guy either....hes just a guy who cares about me...takes an actual interest in my life and likes me for who i am! wow...guys like that are a rareity.....they really are...genuine nice guys have been extinct many many years ago along with the dinosaurs and dodos...dead and non existant....how did i get so lucky all of a sudden.... its like i'm just waiting for the penny to drop...searching for the missing thing...searching for the one bad thing thats gonna happen....what is it...*scratches head* maybe for once and once only my life is in order...there is no chaos...everything is fine and everything is well...maybe for once there is no drama and no need for a sympathetic shoulder to cry on.... maybe for once the penny doesnt need dropped because this time everything is gonna be fine....just fine! READ (0) CMNT

Life [Sunday November 19th, 2006 7:15pm] Life is like a roller coaster....theres ups and downs, theres highs and lows....and sometimes when you feel on top of the world woosh your back at the bottom again just like that...sometimes you pick yourself back up again and slowly you climb back to the top and reach your high again...sometimes it takes time to get there and you experience little bumps here and there and go coasting along for a while, but when you do reach the top that high you feel is incredible...... i constantly feel like i'm riding on a rollercoaster....i cant figure out if its a good thing or a bad one...? READ (0) CMNT

Biggest rant yet!! [Wednesday July 26th, 2006 12:06am] Omg! i'm not even being funny....i'm pissed off to the max and seriously i dont think i've been this pissed off for a long long time i txted the bitch and asked politely for my NEW NEVER WORN jacket back and she tells me nope! she really does have the nerve that girl! after living off us for 3 fucking years! causing so much distress and trouble you can not imagine how does she repay us? the list is endless!!!  1. she steals my clothes...everything thats limited edition, expensive or new is now currently floating about somewhere! 2. she refuses to give my clothes back to me! 3. she treats the house like a hotel as i've mentioned before! 4. she gives our family a bad name 5. she tells her boss everything that goes on in this house! its like living in big brother! 6. she runs up huge phone bills and doesnt pay for them! 7. she messes everything up and doesnt clean up! 8. she breaks the washing machine and iron everytime! 9. she runs up a huge electricity bill 10. i'll stop at this one or i mite be here all night! she spreads rumours and tells everyone what a bad auntie and uncle my mum and dad are and she tells people its living hell living in my house! well then if she fucking doesnt like it that much then she can very well leave! toodloo loo! bye bitch! she really really needs a good beating and a good psychiatrist that girl!  someone has got to sort her out please before i have a break down!  i've lost weight (i'm not complaining) recently from all the worry of what i'm gonna find missing from my bedroom when i go home! i now fit into a smaller size than i was....its not healthy!  shes a fucking health hazzard too!!  SLUTTTTTTTT!!!!1 READ (0) CMNT

[Tuesday July 25th, 2006 1:52am] OMG......THIS ENTRY WILL CONTAIN SOME RATHER EXPLICIT AND COLOURFUL LANGUAGE SHALL WE SAY... IF ANYONE READ LAST NIGHTS ENTRY THEY'LL KNOW I HAVENT BEEN FEELING THE BEST BUT REALLY TONIGHT IVE JUST HAD ENOUGH! ITS EITHER ME OR HER! AND WE ALL KNOW WHO I'M TALKING ABOUT WHEN I SAY HER!! I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF HER AND HER ANTICS AND CLOTHES STEALING! WHY CANT SHE JUST GO AND BUY HER OWN? SHE COMES IN HERE TO MY ROOM AND TAKES EVERYTHING THATS EITHER A) NEW OR B) EXPENSIVE! THAT GIRL HAS SOME SERIOUS ISSUES AND SHOULD GO AND SEE A 'MIND DOCTOR' TO SORT HER HEAD OUT! GOD I DONT THINK I'VE HATED ANYONE MORE RITE NOW! HOW CAN YOU HATE YOUR OWN COUSIN THAT MUCH? IT SENDS SHIVERS DOWN MY SPINE JUST TO EVEN THINK OF ALL THE STUFF SHES PUT US THROUGH THESE PAST COUPLE OF YEARS AND WHEN I LOOK AT HER THERE ISNT AN OUNCE OF LOVE OR COUSINLY FEELING IN MY BODY JUST HATRED PURE HATRED.....SOMETIMES I THINK AM I THE ONE WHO SHOULD BE GOING TO SEE A SHRINK BUT THEN IT COULDNT BE ME CAS I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO FEELS THIS SORT OF RESENTMENT TOWARDS HER! EVEN HER BEST FRIEND FEELS IT! NOT SURPRISING HER BEST FRIEND RIPPED UP ALL HER PHOTOS AND BURNED THEM! ROT IN HELL SMELLY BIATCH! ALL I WANT IS MY CLOTHES BACK. OCCASSIONALLY I'VE TAKEN SOMETHING OF HERS JUST TO SHOW HER WHAT IT FEELS LIKE BUT THEN SHE COMES INTO MY ROOM AND TAKES JUST ABOUT ANYTHING SHE CAN LAY HER HANDS ON I'VE NEVER TAKEN ANYTHING EXPENSIVE AND I'VE NEVER TAKEN ANYTHING 'NICE' ITS ALL BEEN LITTLE TOPS FROM H AND M AND CRAP LIKE THAT, THIS TIME SHES GONE TOO FAR, NEW JACKET WITH A LABEL NEVER WORN! DOES SHE THINK SHE LOOKS BETTER THAN ME IN THAT JACKET? CAS I CAN CERTAINLY TELL YOU NOW SHE DONT!! I HATE YOU STUPID COW AND I WANT YOU OUT OF MY LIFE FOREVER!THIS IS MY FIRST RANT ABOUT HER IN QUITE A WHILE NOW BUT THIS TIME ITS GONE TOO FAR AND SHES JUST PUSHED ME OVER THE EDGE! I DONT WANT TO KNOW OF HER EXISTANCE......PEOPLE BEWARE SPEAK OF HER AND BE PREPARED TO GET BITTEN ON THE HEAD UNLESS I VOLUNTARILY SPEAK ABOUT HER! READ (0) CMNT

insomnia [Monday June 19th, 2006 3:12am] 3 am and i'm still not asleep...something is definately not right....i cant sleep its driving me insane....its not just tonight and a couple of nights here and there...its every night!!! i'll try to sleep and the more i try to sleep the more i cant sleep...thats 3 problems to see the doctor about tomorrow. my life sux right now cas of this sleeping problem and minor hayfever problem...i wanna pull my eyes out....o an cut off my nose......and i just wanna be able to sleep....like actually just get into bed and close my eyes and be away to dream land..... eveytime i try i get frustrated with myself and wanna kill myself....maybe thats the problem there.....maybe i should go see a shrink...hypnosis crap...that would be fun...or maybe i could just get some pills? *sigh* i spoke to M last nite....i'll be seeing him on thursday ^_^  he thought i was avoiding/ ignoring him bless his lil heart....thats at least one less thing to worry about...the whole friendship vs relationship problem, kinda seems clear now!  i really need to sleep....i've been trying for like 3 hours and stil cant sleep....any suggestions on how to get to sleep anyone?i've even darkened my room in order to make it totally dark, i've tried tiring myself out before bed time, i've tried to concentrate on staying awake...result of that is i end up more awake!  *sigh* READ (0) CMNT

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[Monday May 22nd, 2006 11:19pm] well politics one word laughable...mmm...my hair smells nice, anyways thats besides the point cas politics was fucking shite today!! i mite aswell just tell my family i'm not going to uni rite now! theres no way i've got anything but a C this year for politics and theres no way i'm going to pass history with a b or business studies for that matter....im gonna live in a cardboard box clairepie hunny would you like to design my box? READ (3) CMNT

[Monday May 22nd, 2006 12:40am] GOOD LUCK FELLOW POLITICS STUDENTS!  HAHA NOT THAT I'VE DONE ENOUGH REVISION FOR IT.....IM IN BED THINKING I SHOULD BE DOING MORE FOR THIS EXAM YET I CHOOSE TO USE MY TIME TO UPDATE MY LIVEJOURNAL AND USE THE TIME I HAD TO REVISE TODAY TO WATCH SOME KOREAN SERIES ON DVD! HOW STUPID AM I ? HOWEVER THE KOREAN SERIES WAS THE CUTEST THING I'VE EVER SEEN ITS A LOVE STORY AND MAKES YOU FEEL SO GUSHY AND WARM INSIDE ^^ ITS AMAZING!! I WISH PEOPLE LIKE THAT EXISTED, I WISH LIFE WAS LIKE THAT! HATE THE WAY REAL GUYS ARE SO SMELLY AND GAY!!!  REAL BOYS = SMELLY,GAY, RETARDED,CONFUSING,AND TOTALLY NOT CHARMING! SO Y DO WE LOVE THEM???? WEIRDOS!!.... HM....I FEEL I DONT HAVE ENOUGH EXAMPLES FOR POLITICS TOMO...DEAR O ME THINK I MITE GO SURF THE NET FOR SOME RITE NOW! READ (1) CMNT

revision..... [Monday May 15th, 2006 2:46pm] finally finished first module of history revision!! it feels bliss now onto tackle comparison module of politics! @_@ disappointing or what? reward yourself with more revision! hm.... i'm way over my time on a break but stupid someone is standing in the kitchen talking really loudly on the phone and i cant concentrate....god i wanna shoot her! now shes shut the door to the kitchen and i need to revise!!! i mite have to take a minor "BF" if anyones ever seen white chicks they'll know what i'm talking about! its amazing movie!! why does she have to use my house phone anyways??? **sigh** my life is so complicated!!! anyways good luck to everyone doing exams and happy revision!!! xxx READ (0) CMNT

wow amazing!! [Monday May 15th, 2006 2:40pm] hot_ice_queen is poisonous! Induce vomitting if ingested. N POISON Username: From Go-Quiz.com READ (0) CMNT

wow! this is cool!!! [Monday May 15th, 2006 2:39pm] Look out for the m HOLE Username: From Go-Quiz.com READ (0) CMNT

[Saturday May 6th, 2006 11:58pm] i got paid today!! full on happy bunny! went down to jamaica inn after work for about 15 min then left and now im sitting here on the internet! me life is so interestin! just said hi to someone and they didnt answer how rude! hm.....indiana land tomorrow i'm so excited! if your fat how can you be a porn star? apparently there is a tv series on called larger than life! kinda makes me wanna puke! no offence! i just burnt bread oopsie! 1 full day left of school left! full on excited muck up day tuesday....i'm gonna be a princess i'm going shopping with my fat paypacket! new clothes for leavers dinner saw some nice clothes in magazines today....need to shop! some people are so rude! READ (0) CMNT

[Monday May 1st, 2006 9:13pm] [ mood | disappointed ] [ music | DONT FORGET ABOUT US ] hey hey i was given the letter T by homo join in the letter game! give me a comment on this post and i'll give you a letter and you have to write 10 words beginning with that letter and an explanation of what that word means to you!  T is for...... TUXEDO  a lot of guys look well hot in a tux, guys even if your ugly put on a tux and most girls will swoon at your feet...tho the tux has to be a nice one and it has to suit you!  TEDDY BEAR  i grew up with one and i'm sure many others did too! i still sleep with about 10 teddys my favs are my ralph lauren bear and my hello kitty there so cuddly!! better than cuddling with a man!  TONER  biotherm skin toner...couldnt live without it! does wonders for my skin! best skin care product ever!  TODAY the start of my present and future TOMMY HILFIGER  a racist so and so.... in an interview he was once asked 'Mr Hilfiger if your clothes sell the best in the asian market why dont you tailor them so they are more suited for asian bodies?' i quote 'my clothes are made for whites only' after i read that i havent purchased another tommy hilfiger item since! TREADMILL so many a times have people tried to lose weight on this thing....i believe it really does work but it takes a hell of a lot of time! but still keeps you fit and healthy TEXAS where President George W Bush is from...i dislike him and i dislike the texas accent TORNADO first movie i went to see with my mum in hongkong! that night was amazing just me mum and a couple of her friends without my lil brothers in the way had an imense night and quality daughter mother bonding time  TALKING  something i love to do and never shut up! i talk about anything and everything  TOUCH at this moment in time i'm craving for someones touch....but sadly that person is not yet over his ex....dammit what does it take to get over her? READ (2) CMNT

back to school on monday!!! ALREADY? [Saturday April 22nd, 2006 11:59am] :'( cry cry its back to school on monday and i really dont wanna go back!! i've had too much fun doing nothing and not really being stressed on this easter holiday! sux! but on the other hand theres only 2 weeks left of school left! went to work last nite and some hot guy came in just before i was leaving phwoar he is so hot except he always comes in with his girlfriend! :'( but he did give me a really hot smile before he left mmmmm....so hot! recently i rediscovered my faceparty account and seeing i havent updated for such a long time i decided to update it, anyways so ive been getting these messages from all these random people on it some person wrote to me saying 'ever considered appearing on adiscreet amateur adult movie.... we're currently looking for women with your obvious talent....interested?'made me laugh so much me and my brother are currently bonding...sounds weird i know but we're watching this chinese drama together so we can spend time together hehe its good tho cas i dont think i've ever done anything like that with him before! love my lil bro will miss him dearly in a couple of months time! READ (0) CMNT

[Tuesday April 18th, 2006 11:55pm] easters nearly finished and i can say its been fun yeah! made a huge mistake on saturday nite! went into the wok with mark and cas i'd been drinking i wasnt too steady on my feet so i was leaning on mark kinda, some would say i was touching him up. but any how i was told later that Mrs Chan owner of the wok is the biggest gossiper in town o dear so no guesses who the hot of the press topic of convo for the next while will be! ME! its gonna be OMG i saw jade with a caucasian boy on sat nite and they were all over each other, rumours could get worst than that as shes a known exagerater so you know it could probably escalade to OMG she was kissing him in front of a shop full of ppl! i mean my uncle and auntie who are happily married have been rumoured to be divorced and apparently the women that works for him is pregnant with his baby! *sigh* sometimes i think my downfall in life is going to be gossip and rumours in the 9 years i've lived here the rumours just get worst! apparently i was seen canoodling with some guy on the streets of bangor! but if anyone knew me they'd know canoodling happens near enough in private and not on the streets of bangor where beady eyes can see! well fuck you all stupid Northern ireland chinese community! i'm leaving you soon!!! i cant wait! i'm gonna be better than all you! READ (1) CMNT

[Saturday April 15th, 2006 12:41pm] hm........ READ (0) CMNT

[Tuesday April 11th, 2006 8:17pm] haha friday nite eventful! READ (0) CMNT

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